cleanse day 6 – breaking the fast

it is over. officially at 7:10 this evening, reeses pieces and sun chips. reeses pieces because we watched E.T. in class and my professor brought some for everyone. sun chips because i wanted to. this is the exact opposite of what they tell you to do when coming off the cleanse, but they also tell you to do it for a minimum of 10 days.

i don’t want to rationalize here. i didn’t complete the cleanse.

i did realize that this isn’t the cleanse for me. i did make it a full four days longer than the last attempt. i did write in this blog for six days in a row.

most importantly i was forced to acknowledge some things about myself. i have a persistent sense that i’ve never accomplished anything, so i look for quick successes. but i don’t need them as much i need to slow and take stock and give myself a pat on the back every once in a while.

here’s where i do that. “ladycakes, you’re doing really well. you’ve accomplished those 3 things you set out to do for summer. you don’t need to deny yourself the things you love to prove you are strong. by the way congratulations on getting an A in your art class! isn’t ladycakes the best word ever?”

and i didn’t even qualify it. ha! thanks cleanse, but now i must say good bye.